Miedo escénico

Fear of giving me the lines new

maybe won't be able to learn them
maybe I'll make mistakes
people will either think I'm no good or
laugh or belittle me or think I can't act.
Women looked stern and critical
unfriendly and cold in general
afraid director won't think I'm any good.
remembering when I couldn't do a god
damn thing.
then trying to build myself up with the
fact that I have done things right that
were even good and have had moments
that were excellent but the bad is heavier
to carry around and feel have no confidence
depressed mad

Marilyn Monroe (Fragments)